10 years.


10 long years since I last saw him.


wow.




maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me..


or maybe it was his twin bro instead..




whatever it is..


it feels good seeing him after so long..



no courage to say hi though..


doubt he remembers me.

i was disinterested.

took out my pen and paper

and started doodling during lectures..

i doodled a cityscape of an imaginary city i always see inside my head.

barricades made up of giant cereal boxes..

clock towers that are so tall they almost touch the clouds..

quadruple- Decker buses and marshmallow-shaped cars..

i think i drew the esplanade too.. without the 'spikes'..



and i suddenly thought of Stephen wiltshire..

he is an artist who has an amazing ability to memorize and draw highly detailed city scapes that are so terrifyingly accurate..

and he ipods while at work.

i would love to meet him one day.

google him.

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the end.

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I am seriously beginning to look and feel like stain boy.

What I currently and desperately need:


Grace of God.

Courage and determination to forgive..

A whole lot of joy + hope.

Add another whole chunk of faith to that..

most of all.. a lot of healing.